...and the frustrations that follow such action.

I haven't updated in the longest time, I know. I was hooked with multiply and preoccupied with other things that I totally forgot I have an LJ account! First thing's first, the first post in 2008 and here I am about to rant away again. Remember my 'little' post back in multiply? If you're my contact, it's at: http://pozhaluista.multiply.com/journal/item/15. Putting things in perspective, I have laid out all the things I would be doing right after graduation. On top of my list is moving out of this wretched house and being able to no longer see the stinkin' faces of stupid, obese people. Okay... was that harsh? I would like to think it is but well, the truth hurts. And, at least the obese part is verifiable and truth evidenced by and stamped on it to the nth degree. Anyway, enough degradation. Let's go back to my plans. Since med schools are relatively far from where I currently live, it is logical to think that transferring to proximal dormitories is a lot more convenient. Although there is a considerable addition to the expenses, the rationale behind the proposition outweighs it. Kaya lang sadly, I didn't have the heart to propose this to my mother kasi apparently, the demons in the household told my mom about my "long" computer hours. Nalaman niya tuloy na may away (as if the aircon does not contribute a considerable amount to the aggregate electric consumption).

And she said it's just normal for siblings to fight....

I say yes. But then again, there are always exceptions to the rules.

All I know is I'm beginning to hate this family - hate it with a passion I never knew I had and capable of. I wanted to get away from tham as soon as possible, sever all ties and let them be. In fact when you think about it, it's like hitting two birds with one stone... or maybe even three birds: they get rid of me, I get peace of mind, we are all happy.

Di ba?

However, once I graduate from med, they won't have any free consultations. Haha. It's time for payback. I assure you na hindi mangyayari ang nangyari sa mga kapatid ni papa. Maghihiwalaya lang, pero no issue whatsoever, just pure hatred for each other. I guess mas malalim ata iyon. IF meron man, I assure you it won't be my doing. The moment I enter the world of medicine, I HAVE NO MORE FAMILY, JUST BENEFACTORS that I owe a DEBT OF GRATITUDE to, that I will pay up to the last single cent once I receive my paychecks. If completed, no more family. Just little old me.

I guess mas ang ganitong arrangement. Masakit kasi pag sarili mo ring pamilya ang sisira sayo. Kaya bago ka pa masaktan, better to avoid it. May logic naman di ba?

Ayan, nalabas ko na naman ang sama ng loob ko. Thanks net for being a great listener. God knows how much I need one. :) Haha. I feel better already. :)

Digital Filipino's Top 10 Emerging Influential Blogs


I'm submitting my entry for the  http://digitalfilipino.blogspot.com/2007/05/top-10-emerging-influential-blogs-in.html. This way, I think I would have some sort of power as a blogger for electing (for lack of better term) The Top 10  Emerging Influential Blogs in 2007. For the first time, I'll be participating in such blog activity to support some blogs that i find amusing.

Here are some of these blogs:

http://micamyx.i.ph - Micamyx-Dagupena Dreamer
http://jhed.asteeg.net - The Dork Factor
http://crost23.blogspot.com - Billycoy
http://www.happyslip.com - Happy Slip
http://dine.racoma.com.ph - The D Spot

Better late than never!

Would people believe that I found time to write an entry here despite the busy schedule I have in school? Papers await me here and there and with what little time I have to complete them all, I still found time to write a little entry here. That's because I killed my old self before. Now, I'm an entirely new person: a person who now loathes procrastination to the highest degree.

"Ano ba? May oras pa o! Kaya ko pang gawin yan!"

Madalas na itong naririnig sa bibig ko ever since last weekent. The Caliraya bootcamp by Nu Skin was enlightening. I am an undergraduate in Psychology in UP Diliman but all this time spent working under the demands of the course, I truly believed that leadership trainings never really work - that games and simulations created for leadership aren't really effective determinants to who becomes a leader and who does not. Pero I was wrong. The bootcamp was a blast! Sure, may mga bodyaches ako here and there but these pains are temporary and the plethora of knowledge inculcated in me will always stay within me for the rest of my life. Dumami pa ang mga kaibigan ko! I sorted my life the day after I went home from Caliraya. I planned it - and guess what, it wasn't so hard. In fact, I was able to finish a lot of the work I intended to do if I set a deadline on them. I was so ecstatic that I was able to force myself to work productively for the first time in the longest time. I made 15 calls this day right after I finished doing my papers and guess what, I booked 6, not bad, right? So what happened to the 9? Not interested and surprisingly, I did not take that as negative as before. So what really happened in Caliraya that made me change drastically? Let me share a few things that struck me so powerfully I have realized the hidden potential I have as a would-be leader.

The photo on the top shows a new found friend, Ceejay (left), a 28-year old single mom. She doesn't really look 28 (must be the products.. haha!) and she doesn't even look like a mom. But here she was, doing the business and enjoying it. She was one of the many friends I made during the entire bootcamp. The center guy was one who took my mind off a lot of things negative and just focused it on him. I held on to every word he said. His name is Ambrose Hsu (not sure with family name). He studied in Melbourne, Australia with an Honors Degree in Computer Science. He was also the CEO of two international banks in Hongkong. But, he quit his CEO positions to work with Nu Skin. I told myself, this guy must have seen something greater than CEO income in Nu Skin that's why he quit BOTH of his much-coveted executve positions. Indeed, he made a right choice. He is a Blue Diamond and Millions Circle member (in $ mind you).

"You do what you have to do, whether you like it or not." These words held on to me like a magnet to a another magnet of a different pole/charge. It was so powerful that I told myself: I am doing this business for a reason and that reason fueled my desire to sign up. If I become inactive, what will happen to those reasons? I mean, I study and I don't like it. But I have to do it because I NEED IT. So is the business. I NEED THE BUSINESS - and because I need it, I MUST DO IT. Beat that! And mind you, parang artista si Ambrose the entire two days we were in Caliraya - daming nagpapa-autograph (myself included). He even participated in one of the games, made 'sabit' in the jeepney and ALMOST slid down the mudslide (photo inset below). He was so humble and so full of things to share that you'll just stare at him and never really know that about 2 hours had passed with him talking. All of us in the theater were so engrossed with his words that we felt, 'bitin' (kahit na 2 hours na siyang nagsasalita). I was honored I had my picture taken with him. It was truly once in a lifetime. The bootcamp, over-all was the best, most creative, most effective and one of the most enjoyable experiences I had in my whole life. And I am looking forward for more boot camps and definitely, more and more success and money in the business. Futhermore, a fellow member shared that this business is like hitting two birds with one stone: you earn while you learn - a difference of one letter.

Wait for me, and I promise you, I will shine in Nu Skin.


My new motto and probably the best, most applicable statement for me: "Procrastination is opportunity's natural assassin."

With this, I leave you guys with a reminder...

A goal is clear when you see it happening in the future. It is even clearer when you're near the finish line. God bless. :D

Nakakatuwa nang tumambay sa tambs ngayon. Halos tawanan lang ang ginagawa.

Kanina, may alumnus na bumisita at nagpa-deliver ng pizza sa tambs! Hay, sulit talaga ang pagtambay sa tambs non. Free food! Haha. shocks, hinintay ko pa nga si Dindin na kumuha ng pangalawang pizza kasi ayokong nag-iisa ako. Haha.

Anyway, nakatulog ako sa Chem 1 kung class. Ay, wag na lang... Nakakahiya. :D

Dito na lang ako, ok? :D

Sumakit ng todo ang ulo ko kahapon. Ewan ko kung anong dahilan... siguro dahil ang haba ng break ko, mga 4.5hours before my next class at tumambay lang ako sa booth ng aking org. Sobrang init pa noon at ang boring ng readings to the highest level. Haha. And, did I mention mainit?

Ayon, I was texting Kenjo rin last night pero unfortunately, nawalan ako ng load kaya hindi ko na replyan ang mga taong nagtext sa akin. Ang bilis nga nung load eh, 150php in 4 days? Wow, ang gastos ko naman.

Anyway, sana iba na itong araw na ito. Hindi na sana sasakit pa ang ulo ko at hindi na rin ako maiinitan masyado (malabo ito). Haha. Magkabilang panig pa ng UP ang mga classes ko ngayon: NIPR - Phan - MSI.

Todong lakaran na. Haha.

Pissed off ako kahapon for two main reasons: I have tons of homework piling up for the SECOND week of school and my siblings (or is it just sibling?) can't help but shut their f _ _ _ _ _ _ mouths. I know i wasn't able to do my share of the chores pero they could have at least told me nicely at hindi nagpaparinig.

Shet talaga. Hayy, if I raised enough money sa Pharma, I would GLADLY, DEFINITELY and IRREVOCABLY move out of this unit. Sawang-sawa na ako sa pagsusungit at pagpaparinig. Don't they know that I work sa ORTIGAS?!

O-R-T-I-G-A-S: yan, cheering na para loud and clear. Palibahasa kasi, hindi nila nararanasan ang ganitong stress dahil wala naman silang ginagawa kundi magpalaki ng bilbil!! (sana hindi mag-work ang Orlistat para no hope na! Hmp!) HAH! I am so furious! Everytime na lang na may away, it's always two against one at ako yung underdog...

Kampihan to the max?

Anyway, I would not be surprised kung mangyari man sa amin ang nangyari sa family ng papa ko. Paano naman kasi, hindi nila masabi ng MAAYOS ang gusto nilang sabihin, palibhasa kasi, TAKOT sila. Noon, "Pakisabi nga kay Kuya Rene ganito, ganyan..." May bibig ka naman di ba? Bat di ikaw ang magsabi? Hay naku, Im burning with fury na talaga. Lately, narealize ko, I AM THE MAN OF THIS UNIT. Pinagkatiwala ni papa ang unit na ito sa akin, and from this moment on, MY WORD IS LAW. Since ganyan ang asta nila sa akin, I will fight fire with fire. Tingnan na lang natin kung sino ang susuko. (shet, famas-deserving line)

Anyway, on a lighter note na lang. Masaya ang pagtambay sa tambs lately. Minsan mas gusto ko pang magtagal doon kaysa umuwi kasi makikita ko na naman ang mga matatabang mukhang nagsusungit. PARANG SAGING! Hay, hindi na ako maka-let go. Tatapusin ko na nga lang dito baka makapagsabi pa ako ng profanities. Haha.

Go Pharma!

PS: Oi Mica, di ko ma-chambahan pag-OL mo. Anong oras ba? Baka kasi may ka-s_ _ chat ka eh. Haha. Paramdam ka!

Ang haggard ng first day of school ko.

I woke up at 8:30am and took a bath earlier than usual for me to be able to withdraw some money needed for my tuition fee. Natawa nga lang ako kasi I kept delaying paying my tuition when in fact, I was able to complete my sched on the second day of enlistment. Hayy, katamaran talaga.

Ganito kasi ang nangyari ngayon. I arrived at China Bank at around 9:10am and it wasn't open yet so I waited until finally, it opened at 9:35am. Talk about 9:00am sharp opening. Sheesh. Hindi tuloy ako nakapasok sa aking Physics 10 na class (na by the way, wala rin palang prof, luckily). At dahil matagal ako sa China Bank (my number was 43 and the current number being served by the tellers is 08 - shet), I was almost late sa aking Psych 145 na class, na btw, hindi rin pinasukan ng aking professor na iniidolo ko (:P).*  Isa pa palang misfortune, naiwan ko ang aking rummages sa bangko, na thankfully, nakita ni manong mario at tinago niya kasi he knows I'll be back for it (I wasn't able to thank him properly though. THANKS MANONG!). * Then immediately after this class (psych 145), I am to head to MSI for my MS 101, -  did nothing but discuss the benefits of having a perfect attendance, pero at least, may nagawa.

Ngayon, the reason why I was so tired was entirely due to the demands of the organization. Sumali kasi ang PMHS sa FOPC (Freshmen Orientation Prog Comm) dahil the org lacks bio majors (dapat 50%+1 ang bio majors) na isang imposed rule sa mga tambayang nasa Owl's nest. Kaya the joining the FOP is severely needed to meet this demand. Nakakapagod kasi besides the FOP, may mga requirements pa that need to be met for org recognition (di raw kasi kami recognized last sem) and yung mga hassles with finding subjects (prerog-ing and all) and certifying form 5's. However kahit tiring, the program held in Pav 4205 was fun. It was all-around bonding at punung-puno ng craziness about. Masaya pala ang org pag member (or good as member) ka na. Anyway, may CS orientation again tomorrow at 11am sa CS Atrium and we are supposed to wear our new org shirt (the red one - na masyadong LARGE for me, btw) and I am again hoping na maging formidable na naman yung attendance ng members (and idusctees - wee!). Hopefully rin, maging mas masaya.

Here's a toast sa magandang pero nakakapagod na first day ng school year 07-08! Sana magtuluy-tuloy na (yung maganda, hindi yung nakakapagod - haha).

Nakakalungkot naman. Today is June 11, 2007, 11:40PM and a couple more hours, official start na ng first semester of my final year in college.

I am feeling ambivalent. Hindi ko alam kung dapat akong maging masaya or not. Medyo nasanay akong wala masyadong ginagawa nung summer eh - and then, biglang sasalpak na ako to study again for 6 months (without pay). Mas mahirap pa sa mga naging jobs ko.

Pero nonetheless, this sem would be one of my best. The last was the worst and all I could hope for is the promise of a good future.

A toast to me and the life I would be living 10 or so years from now.

Good luck with school, people!

Dumating din na naman ang pinaka-iinisan kong araw sa buong buhay ko sa UP - ang enrollment.

I took considerable faith in the fact that I am a senior kaya, in so being, priority na ako ngayon. Pero no! i got the lowest number of units in the whole damn universe!

Ok, maybe not the lowest number of units, just one of the lowest numbers ever been recorded in UP history. Ok, exaggeration na naman, mababa lang. Ang pinakamababa ko kasing nakukuhang units sa CRS ay 13. Usually, isang subject na lang kailangan para hindi ako mag-underload. Now, I need 12 motherf*cking units for my dream semester (next sem) to come true - which is, relaxation galore!

Today is the 6th of June, and yesterday was one of the luckiest days of my life. I arrived in UP around 10:45am (at ang meeting dapat ay 10am. Haha. Sorry, Aya!) kasi alam ko naman na 1pm pa ang enlistment for people with surnames starting in letters F-O. Kaya hindi ako ganon nagmamadali. Anyway, our target that day is Chem 1 no matter what the cost. and believe it or not, 11:45am pa lang, pumila na kami. Kamela, Aya and I were the very first three in the line (ang saya!) at tig-isang slot lang per sched offered ang available - at nakuha namin mga yun! Haha. Really darn lucky.

Next we parted ways, Aya and I went to Pav 3 for Physics 10 and Kam for Anthro 10 (na nakuha rin niya! Congrats!). At pagpasok pa lang namin sa PH 3201, 20 slots pa ang TF 10:00-11:30 na Physics 10. Oh, joy! And I was the priority at that particular time. By all means, I got the slot. And there goes saying, my hellish days are over. since priority na ako next semester! Ga-graduate na ako, I'm so happy.

Yeah, and right after fulfilling that rather simple task, I headed straight for work and guided Mica with her guest and then attended the training for upcoming execs. Mawawala kasi yung mga senior executives this Thursday (they'll be going to Singapore for forum of sorts) kaya kailangan ng manpower. Go pharma! Haha.

Life is a bitch, I agree. But it gives me one hell of a ride (get it?)!  I love it.

Nakakainis talaga pag may diarrhea ka.

Just imagine, we were in a middle of something important sa job and then all of a sudden, there's this knot twisting in your gut, as if some sort of Hirudo medicinalis is trying to leech itself out of your system.

Shet and double shet.

Hindi ko talaga alam ang gagawin ko. Buti na lang, Mica was there with me (and she's a business partner din) and i told her of my predicament. Buti na lang hindi siya tumawa (iba ang tinatawanan niya, for sure... hmp.) or else, I would've blushed more profusely at baka mailabas ko pa ng de-oras. Hayy, sometimes luck's just not on your side. Furthermore, hindi naging successful ang work ngayon since ang daming new people who arrived and need to be oriented, kaya we postponed the work again for tomorrow.

--Oo nga pala, umuwi ako ng may malamig na pawis at mala-impyernong pagdurusa at masinsinang pagpigil ng butas ng aking -toot- para hindi lumabas ang hindi muna dapat lumabas habang iniisip ko kung ano ang mga kinain ko the past hours. One, yung spanish na kinain ko madaling araw hanggang breakfast (marami yun eh), two: a glass of milk, and three, the coffee from starbucks. I came to one conclusion: the Spanish bread. Oh my, favorite ko pa man din ang yun. :) kasi parang, wala, malamig na eh. (ang labo)--

However, not all things that happened today were on bad luck's side. There's the starbucks chismisan preceding the unlucky event.

Mica and I were never really close nung high school. In fact, hindi kami masyadong nag-uusap unless it's related to acads and the school paper. And I didn't really know her personally. Si Kenjo, partner ko sa thesis yun eh, kaya malamang, kilala ko na yun (Haha, ok naman grade natin sa research di ba?). But Mica's a different story. Hindi kami naging classmates buong high school (tama di ba?) and we rarely interacted. I have no idea why though... Perhaps because I was never really a people-person.

Pero all's well that ends well. It was as if we were really close before, which is good. Tawa lang kami nang tawa sa Podium (nahirapan akong hanapin) non eh. It started with Mabaho pa rin ba? ...

Ay shet! Baka mabasa... Ok erasin natin.

Basta ang nangyari, lumabas ang pagkapasaway ni Mica at hindi na bumalik sa OJT niya for two hours. Umalis siya ng 5pm at bumalik ng mga 7pm. Pero nilagay pa rin niya sa log-out time niya, 7pm. Ang talino noh? Haha. Mary, Grace! Kelangan kasama pa rin kayo. Thank God for coffee shops.

Plano natin next outing! Dapat mas marami na tayo! Haha. Kudohs!

Andito na naman ako, typing my life off... I came home around 11:10 PM and I've just noticed that my laundry is piling up. Sheesh, maglalaba na naman ako bukas. Asar. I hate washing my clothes. Besides having my hands unwillingly scraped, sasakit pa ang likod ko sa kakayuko (mababa yung sink namin eh). Sometimes I wish we have someone who would be doing our laundry pero wala eh, we are financially challenged as of the moment kaya nagdurusa kami ngayon...

On another topic, ngayon ko lang na-realize na ang layo pala ng Ortigas... Shet, I've been to and from the said place for almost a month now and ngayon ko lang na-realize yon. Haha. Na-stress kasi ako dahil I've been trying to make contacts that don't seem to meet a well-placed ultimatum. Kaya yan, I'm near the point of desperation. Pero nonetheless, I won't give up kasi I know I should make it in the business to make it big (saka para mabawi na rin yung mga losses ko in terms of effort). Gusto ko hindi lang sa academics mag-eexcel. Sabi ni robert Kiyosaki, schools require us to excel academically and to earn a lot of money without actually teaching us how to earn it.

Totoo naman. Masyadong narrow yung scope ng mga pinag-aaralan natin. School does show us that high grades would guarantee us a job and a respectable niche in society. I would agree with the latter, kasi totoo naman: kapag may pinag-aralan ang tao, respetado siya. But I would have to say, I disagree with the former.

Bakit?

Kung ganito ang case, lahat ng matatalino, mayayaman. Lahat ba sila mayayaman? The sad truth is: NO. Kaya sabi ko sa sarili ko, "I'm studying in the premiere university in the country but if this is the case, when I graduate, hindi pa rin sure na magiging financially stable ako.", and I realized, I had to make sure that I will be. Kaya I took steps to further ensure that I'll be having a bright future. And I hope na sana, lahat din ng mga taong kasama ko, nakikita kong hindi naghihirap, kaya as much as possible...

SPREAD THE LOVE! Haha.

Sana wala ng mahirap kasi nakakaawa silang tingnan. Anyway, whether I'll go through Medicine or not, I guess, I'll be having financial power to back me up kaya I will be in a win-win situation. If you want to know more about Robert Kiyosaki...

...i-search niyo sa net. Haha. Multi-millionaire siya and an expert in business matters. Yun lang.

Haha, good luck sa akin sa paglaba bukas.

First time ko after 3 or so months ang mag-toast ng bread (wheat bread - whole grain) and guess what, sunog. Haha. It was foolish of me to assume that toasting bread is similar/proportional to making one. Apparently, dapat less than 5 minutes ang ilagay sa toaster para hindi masyadong tostado ang bread, pero the genius in me screamed that the butter won't melt if it were less than 5. So I gave it a six-minute toasting. Well, guess what, parang super-sunog na sugar ang dextrin ng aking bread! It took me 30-damn minutes to consume the cursed bread. Pero...

...ayun, kinain ko pa rin, taking solace in the fact na kokonti lang ang mga taong kumakain ng whole grain wheat bread (kahit na lasang goma dahil sa sobrang toasted). I imagined myself tuloy. I've been planning to move out and live on my own kapag nakapag-raise na ako ng enough money to buy myself a condo/apartment. Pero kung simpleng pag-toast lang ng bread, palpak, paano naman ang life ko as a person? Haha.

Joke lang.

OA naman kung doon ko lang ibabase ang success ko if I live alone. Gusto ko namang tingnan ang mundo with an eclectic vision. I mean, fine, hindi ako magaling sa pagluluto (kaya kong magluto, mind you, hindi nga lang ganon kasarap...), pero I can do my own laundry (or at least buy a washing machine and a drier to make the job easier), buy my own groceries (I enjoy this more than shopping), pay my own bills (God, let's hope the electric bill doesn't exceed 6K) and study on my own (I've been doing that for the past 16 years of my life, thank you very much) and most importantly, I can provide for my own...

Pero, it's still a far-fetched dream. I still have a long way to go... Or pwede ko ring i-take yung advice ni Mica to go into the bold-genre at mag-boldy-boldy na lang for easy money (Hahahahaha!) pero no. Sayang naman ang aking education if I did just that...Saka, I'm so chaste...

Ay oo nga pala, penne pasta ang dinner ngayon.

Ako yung nagluto nung pasta.

Shetemski, ilulubog lang sa kumukulong tubig yun eh! Haha. Saka seasoning lang yung nilagay. Haha. Walang effort.

Wala lang. Yun lang yung nangyari sa buhay ko ngayong Sunday...

Ah, oo nga pala, I went to mass, being the God-fearing-obedient-chastity-loving-ever-so-religious-handsome-ex-seminarian that I am. Pero I can't help but notice people giving me really suggestive glances... You know the kind that says, "I want you now! Take your damn clothes off!"?! Ok, exaggeration lang yun, at nagiging narcissistic na ang entry na ito, kaya before that happens, I'm gonna go, ok?

Buh-bye! :)

PS: Bakit ganyan yung mood ko? Bouncy. Ang suggestuve naman... Saka nagpagupit na rin pala ako dahil super init, yun lang!

May 26, 2007 – another boring excuse of a life. I’ve wasted my time yet again strolling around the mall and calling people I know only half about. I feel life’s getting a little too boring and routinary. Perhaps it’s just brought about by just staying at home with two uncooperative siblings, who knows? I never really scheduled myself up for an intensive introspection but judging by the way I look at myself now, I would feel introspection would be the last in my list of things to do.

Sa totoo lang, mahirap ang walang ginagawa. I do not want to be like 80% of the Filipino population, with lots of time and no productivity. But lately, napapasali ako sa depinisyong iyon. Ha! I tried to get a move on pero there seems to be something holding me back – a fear that I am not really sure of. Pero nonetheless, tingin ko, I’d be ok this coming semester. I’ve dealt with my father’s death quite well now and the improvement’s significant kaya tingin ko, my grades wouldn’t go down the drain like it did the past semester. Pero hindi pa rin naaalis yung pakiramdam na parang walang kahihinatnan ang buhay ko as of the moment.

Anong gagawin after grad? Med or something else?

Surely, bago ako pumasok ng UP, sigurado akong gusto kong mag-doctor. Pero now, parang nakikita ko, hindi na kasing lakas yung drive to be one, di tulad ng dati. There are lots of other options out there and I know I could choose from a plethora pero kasi being on a course through medicine would guarantee me a slot in society. Ang weird kasi mas inaalala ko yung prefixed title sa pangalan ko (Dr.) kaysa sa actual na kikitain ko. Haha. Madalang kasing magkasundo ang pride at practicality. Hindi naman guaranteed after graduation in Med School na mataas agad sweldo. Pero the title is with you. Now if I didn’t go to Med and pursued this part-time job of mine that keeps income growing (:D) literally, I’ll be financially stable in four years pero I will still be addressed with a “Mr.”.

Ang babaw ko talaga as a person!

Sana bigyan ako ng sign ng Maykapal kung ano talaga ang dapat para sa akin. Maraming tumatahak sa direksyon ng mga pangarap nila pero hindi lahat nagtatapos with flying colors. Karamihan bumabagsak na lang. I remember, I just read “Fallen Idols” by Ralph Arnote a while ago. It’s a story of an entertainment columnist, Willy Hanson who tried his best to bring down a senator (Wellings) whose deceit was impeccably hidden (aren’t all government officials?). In public, he was all morals and political honesty, but in the underground, he was involved in a huge sex slavery business plus an unstoppable influx of cocaine and morphine. The next to impossible thing to believe is that one man (Hanson) was able to bring down a powerful senator and put an end to his illegalities, with the help of a woman named Ginny (why is there always a woman? ;p). This Hanson guy and Ginny were two against the world but they came out defeating the world and imprisoning it in its own torturous embrace. It’s fiction and it’s stupid to base it in real world but Hitler, Stalin, Gates and Freud were visionaries too. Their dreams were based mainly on what they think the world needs. In “Fallen Idols”, Hanson believed the world (or at least half of the United States) deserved to be given the right electoral leader. For Hitler, an empire that’s vast enough to spread his ideals, so goes with Stalin and Stalinism, Gates with personal computers and the internet and Freud with the introduction of the unconscious and psychoanalysis.

My point is, ano ba kailangan ng mundo ngayon that I could at least give? Hindi naman na kailangan ng Pinas ang mga senador (ang dami na nilang nag-aagawan sa pwestong iyan), mga empleyado, hindi rin (kakaiba ang unemployment rates natin as a country) at mga nurses, sobrang dami nila! Kung iisipin, there’s only one answer sa tanong na iyan: may shortage ng mga doctor sa Pinas!

Shet, demit, fak.

Back to square one. :(

It's been a while since I last went to the mall. Hindi ko kasi ma-consider na mall ang SM North dahil sobrang alam ko na lahat ng mga nandoon. Really, minsan kahit gaano kalaki ang mall, if you know every nook and cranny of it, it tends to get boring and lifeless - redundant! Kaya sabi ko, what the heck, I have lots of other options to choose from and here I am pathetically narrowing down my choices in terms of geography. Kaya yan, napadpad ako sa Gateway with 4 other friends way back high school.

Nothing much has changed. All four looked practically and technically the same but in them, you can see the years of experience and the lessons they've learned along the way. Being an undergraduate in Psychology, there is this inevitable character in me that separates me from the others - that's making inferences (sort of) and pre-judgments on people based on how they carry themselves and how they speak. In these particular instances, one can rate a person on self-esteem and confidence, even without the factual evidences like achievements. Nakita ko na they were really doing good at nalaman kong they've been well - not to the point of being self-assured (kasi pati ako, hindi pa rin assured), but to the point of getting there. Natuwa ako kasi they are four very strong young women at hindi sila yung patatalo lang sa kahit anong challenges. In short, they've grown. May priorities na sila ngayon at handa nilang gawin lahat to stay within the confines of those priorities.

Marami kaming napagkwentuhan, mostly people from our batch who were worthy of Buzz fame. However, what made me enjoy this evening was that no matter how far distanced we are in career and in time, we found common denominators where we can rekindle and pick up where we left from. This simply is an indication that if ever time and fate permits us to meet again, it is not impossible for us to bond like we've never been separated at all.

Seniors na kami ngayon. How time flies. And circle of friends can either grow or wilt. I am glad I have friends from almost every place I have been to. High school had been great, but college is as well maybe even greater. Friendship may not stand the test of time, but it is not immune to fate. If friendship is destroyed, or simply lost, there is an equal chance that it will come back or it will not. Kaya lang, wala tayong ibang magagawa kundi sundin kung ano ang nakatakda sa atin. As for me, importante sa akin ngayon ang pagkakaroon ng maraming taong nakaka-intindi sa sitwasyon ko. And I'm quite lucky that these four friends of mine, Mary, Mica, Kenjo and Grace, had been mature enough to understand my way of thinking.

Kudohs to the four of you, for making this far and for doing great at you do! I had a terrific time. Hoping for more of this in the future! :)